Confused

I keep asking myself why I'm very good at giving advices but I can't even control my own problems and depressions. I am really confused especially when it comes to feelings. Sometimes I don't even know if I'm really mad at someone or just like feeling mad at him. Weird??? I don't even know who to love and if I really care for a person. Sometimes I feel that they also care for me but suddenly they make me feel than I'm just nothing. I really hate myself for being so stupid. I can't even decide for myself. When it really comes to feelings I get so weak. Maybe that's one of my weak spots.

Hirap naman kasi hindi umasa. Parang feeling ko tuloy pinaglalaruan lang ako ng buhay. Alam ko mababaw lang to kaysa sa iba. But I guess mababaw talaga me. Well I'll just have to accept that fact.