Wrong Decisions

Why do I always make wrong decisions? I aways do experiments though I don't think I play with people. I wanted it to happen but that thing could never happen if I'll just tell that person. I thought I need tpo hurt for it to let go, but I was wrong. What if hat person was too annoyed to even talk to me? What if I decide to come back and he doesn't accept me anymore. Ahhh!!!! I should stop thinking to much I need to stick to what I've done. I won't stop it but I'll go with it since this is what I wanted in the first place. But am I regretting? I'm not quite sure. I hope I'm not. waahhh!!! so much of a roller coaster ride. It's not that person's fault, I needed that time for myself. But I'm sure I'll come back but what isn't sure is that when I come back, will it still be the same? Will that person accept me again for me being so stupid. Maybe at this moment he's angry with me and plans to do the same thing with me. Waahh!!! Why am I so stupid at times? I just decide without even thinking the after effects... huhu... But now I am ok and I'll try to be happy with my decision. I won't think of the consequences for now. I'm ust gonna study hard for our pt and get the highest score ever! As if that's gonna happen... hehe... Well, it's worth a try... wish me luck!