Happy

It's already semestral break and I'm doing fine. I mean I'm sure that when school kicks back in I'm totally gonna die again. In this week I only watch series like "Grey's Anatomy" and "Bones" without even bothering that much about homework and articles, no hurting phone calls and a lot of crying. I cry a lot, tears are just curses. I admit that I miss crying at times but when I actually miss it, it hits me everyday then stops for a long time. It's not worth crying about stupid and useless things but I just can't help it. I can't fake myself and act as if I'm not affected or anything. I worry about my articles and still is happy. I am not speaking with a person that I usually speak to but still I'm happy. The word "HAPPY" here is very shallow. I mean I don't cry, I don't get too paranoid and I can sleep well at night, that is happy for me. Haha. Odd that I am happy when I'm with an argue with a someone. I admit that I was super affected and cried my head off for about 2 times but maybe this is a realization that there are things which aren't worth it. Actually I'm still not sure yet if I'm really happy but for now I think I am.