Letting Go

Why does life have to be this way? Nakakasawa na. What's weird is that you don't even know what you like or what you want. Sometimes I just think that I might be indenial. Well, indenial is something that is hard for me to accept. Sometimes people know what you want but you don't know what you want. Does that make sense? Gosh! There's so many words that are in my head now. Another weird thing, too many words I don't know what it is. Ahhh!!!

The trouble in being confused is that you feel as if your life as of that moment is not owned by you. It seems that you lend it to someone for the moment. Because everytime that I decide only with my own decision, the worst results happen. Atleast when I get consultation from others the moments won't be that bad. It might not be perfect but at least far away from the worst! Deciding makes me sick! Especially when you feel that you've made the wrong decision. Especially when you decide to let go of someone. Then realizes that you can't live without it. Now answer me how can you tell that person that you want him again? You just lost it.

It hurts when you know that if you do a certain thing that person will part himself from you. But you do it. Because you love him and you love yourself and that you can't handle everything that is happening to you because of him. The art of letting go is one of the most terrible things a man can do. Because when you let go of someone you throw away a piece of your life and forgetting everything he has been to you.