Regrets

I do... I regret... I try to change... I found out that I can't change... I get depressed... I argue.. then I regret again... What the heck??? It's a roller coaster ride... I am a bad person. I really am. I did something for a person then I regret it because I didn't got the reaction that I was expecting. I'm bad. I should change this attitude. I hurt people. I hurt myself after hurting those people. Staring from now on I will try to post happy memories than my worst and redundant emotions.

I am so numb. Now I'm feeling it. I only see the faults of others. I didn't even realize that I was also doing it. The same mistake that I despise others. I really hate myself. As of now, I want to cry... I am crying but unseen... I pity myself for being this weak. I cry for people that I value but I don't feel that they value me. I really don't cry with tears and everything but I feel like crying. I felt sorry for myself.. for not knowing that others value me....